The Insider

Hi there, and welcome to my blog. I hope that you will find something interesting, enlightening, informative or the likes that will keep you coming back for more.

I still feel a bit uncomfortable with exposing my inner struggles for the world to see; it takes quite a bit of courage to share this difficult journey. Sharing makes one so vulnerable. But I have always believed that sharing the things we go through and what we have learned with others at least gives some value to the experience. I hope others can learn from my mistakes. Because of this, I will not share my identity with you just yet. As I start feeling more comfortable with my online presence, I will start sharing more about who I am.

Here are the basic facts: I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder II at the end of 2012 at the age of 26. I am an Afrikaans girl from South Africa and grew up on a farm outside a medium-sized town.  ‘Mental illness’ was something I knew absolutely nothing about, even though I had my first suicide thoughts when I was barely a teenager. I was raised in a pick-yourself-up-by-your-bootstraps-and-snap-out-of-it kind of way. It’s been a long road of suffering in silence.

On this blog I will share my experiences from my first bouts of depression, but focus more on how my life changed after my diagnoses and the things that I am learning as I work on getting and remaining stable. I will share all the resources that I have found helpful, talk about my own daily experiences and try to tackle some controversial topics from an insider’s point of view. Having Bipolar Disorder is nothing if not interesting, and I always try to see the humour in the darkest of times. Making fun of myself and sometimes of my illness is part of how I cope, so sometimes you will have to take me with a pinch of salt.

I hope you find the posts here engaging and informative, so that you will keep coming back for more!

Scout

3 thoughts on “The Insider

  1. Being open about mental illness and the struggle is extremely difficult, and I applaud you. I try to do the same, but it’s not always easy. There is stigma. I kept a blog for a long while, and while I started anonymous, as I grew I changed that. And wished I hadn’t. So, I’m starting over, anonymous once again…

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